16. Defining Moment

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Written Friday March 13, 2020 / Day 214 / Morning

Defining moments in our lives are few. Most represent a dramatic change in our very existence. Some we choose - some we experience without our approval.

Those moments, though are significant.

I have just experienced one.

Looking back at our lives, those moments pop out.

Leaving home to go out on our own. That first moment we officially drive a car. Graduations. Marriages. Losing our loved ones. Moving to another city.

The moments that forever change us. Cast us into a new role, responsibility or landscape. Changes which then define us in a new way. A way we could never see coming.

My defining moment seven months past - forever changing my life.

Changing it into something terrible. Something dark. Not only changing everything conceivable, but taking me to a place in which there seemingly, despite all those who would say otherwise, was no escape.

Life in that realm a daily exercise in survival. Of coping. Alone in the darkness of this new world - with the visions of the past world echoing within the darkness.

It is interesting that when the defining moments come in our lives - we have little knowledge of how they will actually change us. For some of them we can only guess while others land us in unfamiliar territory in which we must operate.

My latest defining moment was unexpected - yet not a complete surprise.

Continual prayers for relief and transition to something else stretched out over the weeks and months - and in an unexpected moment in time addressed.

For me, recognizing the defining moment would be an afterthought - a realization of the titanic that was occurring within the course of normalcy.

Faith told me that there would be an answer.

Yet it was excruciatingly difficult to end each day without that answer I needed.

Day after day.

Week after week.

Month after month.

Actually I do not know how I have survived until this time.

No I do know, I was given what I needed to survive.

And I have.

When that defining moment came - the effects were profound and all-encompassing.

The forces I was subject to were powerful - they were intense and unrelenting. While praying for their demise - the reality of their presence being a constant test of that faith I was holding on to.

And they have now been vanquished.

As Goliath was vanquished with only a stone, the forces that were against me were defeated with something that would seem on the surface not to be a weapon.

Brought in by an incredible person who chose to enter the darkness to not only bring their light, but the light of God’s love that they had within them.

God’s love defeated the darkness.

As it always does.

And always will.

I have been freed - that freedom quite stunning. Just as the darkness held its powerful grip around me, this new freedom now opens up life to a new reality.

One in which I am about to enter.

Praising God for the defining moment He knew was always ahead for me.

And now - taking me to the destination His perfect will has ordained.

16. Defining Moment

Written Friday March 13, 2020 / Day 214 / Morning

Defining moments in our lives are few. Most represent a dramatic change in our very existence. Some we choose - some we experience without our approval.

Those moments, though are significant.

I have just experienced one.

Looking back at our lives, those moments pop out.

Leaving home to go out on our own. That first moment we officially drive a car. Graduations. Marriages. Losing our loved ones. Moving to another city.

The moments that forever change us. Cast us into a new role, responsibility or landscape. Changes which then define us in a new way. A way we could never see coming.

My defining moment seven months past - forever changing my life.

Changing it into something terrible. Something dark. Not only changing everything conceivable, but taking me to a place in which there seemingly, despite all those who would say otherwise, was no escape.

Life in that realm a daily exercise in survival. Of coping. Alone in the darkness of this new world - with the visions of the past world echoing within the darkness.

It is interesting that when the defining moments come in our lives - we have little knowledge of how they will actually change us. For some of them we can only guess while others land us in unfamiliar territory in which we must operate.

My latest defining moment was unexpected - yet not a complete surprise.

Continual prayers for relief and transition to something else stretched out over the weeks and months - and in an unexpected moment in time addressed.

For me, recognizing the defining moment would be an afterthought - a realization of the titanic that was occurring within the course of normalcy.

Faith told me that there would be an answer.

Yet it was excruciatingly difficult to end each day without that answer I needed.

Day after day.

Week after week.

Month after month.

Actually I do not know how I have survived until this time.

No I do know, I was given what I needed to survive.

And I have.

When that defining moment came - the effects were profound and all-encompassing.

The forces I was subject to were powerful - they were intense and unrelenting. While praying for their demise - the reality of their presence being a constant test of that faith I was holding on to.

And they have now been vanquished.

As Goliath was vanquished with only a stone, the forces that were against me were defeated with something that would seem on the surface not to be a weapon.

Brought in by an incredible person who chose to enter the darkness to not only bring their light, but the light of God’s love that they had within them.

God’s love defeated the darkness.

As it always does.

And always will.

I have been freed - that freedom quite stunning. Just as the darkness held its powerful grip around me, this new freedom now opens up life to a new reality.

One in which I am about to enter.

Praising God for the defining moment He knew was always ahead for me.

And now - taking me to the destination His perfect will has ordained.

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