Introduction to Volume 3

Introduction to your continued journey.

This is Volume 3 of Essays on Grief. To follow the full journey, reading Volume 1 - The First 30 Days and Volume 2 - One Day at a Time will take you to the point in time in which these essays begin.

This volume covers some of the most intense days of this journey - which says a lot coming from where this series began.

There can really be no assessment of where I am - I am the most likely person to be able to make that observation but profoundly incapable of being able to do that at the present time.

Your bravery continues as you choose to join me in these essays.

There is a combination of numbness and detachment in my world of grief. Apparently a protection mechanism from what I can tell.

My longing for what has been taken from me is constant yet diverted by the obligations of the day and other activities. However, I do not choose to do anything in particular. I still cannot fathom how life will be without my dear sweetie by my side. But I do know that a day will come when life will be understandable. At this time - that is not the case.

The essays continue to come - so I write them. As long as they do they will drive this writing and at some background level - my life.

You are about to now join me in the most unexpected days of my life. My life where the future is not possible, the past is toxic and the present just a haze. This world of grief is like that.

Your desire to join me here touches my heart.

And for that I will always be grateful for your love and bravery in joining me.