Introduction to Volume 4

What you are about to do as you continue to share my grief journey.

This is Volume 4 of Facing Grief - The Essays. To follow the full journey, reading Volume 1 - The First 30 Days, Volume 2 - One Day at a Time and Volume 3 - Transitions will take you to the point in time in which these essays begin.

This fascinating record that I keep writing continues to mystify me. As I have mentioned previously, these messages just come to me. I often have to stop what I am doing to write them down.

Often I am profoundly moved when I read them back. I often read them aloud. Ultimately I plan on narrating all of them as a legacy to my family and a tribute to my dear sweet Joann.

As I finished compiling previous volumes I was often stunned at what I had written. Now I know that what has been written can never be recreated except at the time it was written.

The revelations I have been presented with about myself and the precious relationship I was privileged to have also been overwhelming.

I often think - how could this ever get more intense?

Well, it does.

If you are still reading these I am humbled that you would want to do such a thing. I keep thanking you for your courage and bravery. This is not an endeavor for the casual reader - these are the innermost musings of someone caught in a terrible place.

With God’s help - He is leading me through it. Leading me to a future I have no idea of (on this earth at least) but is coming.

Thank you for accompanying me on that journey.

Your bravery and love are appreciated more than you know.